An Army Wife, & 2 kids at 20

These past few days have been really tough. My daughter is 3 months old now and she has been super fussy the last two days. She doesn't want anything, except to be held all the time. My son has an additude about everything lately. Everything with him is a fight. We literally have to force feed him because he doesn't like to eat anything but crap. That's my fault because I didn't know how to parent as a teen. I am under a lot of stress with college, the kids, and now with my husband leaving for the army. I am going to be all alone for about 7 months. I realized a lot after I had my daughter. I realized with I was 15, and had my son, I was completely unprepared. I am actually a good mother to my daughter because I know things now that I didn't back then. I am financially able to take care of both of my kids now. Who knows what kind of damage my son will have when he is older because he had such an ignorant mother. I love my son to death, but I now know that he deserved better then having a teenager for a parent. Whats done is done, and I wouldn't trade him for the world. I just wish I would have been able to give him everything I gave my daughter. I am a stay at home mother now & my kids have a mother there all the time. That is what they deserve. Not a teenage who has to struggle to find a babysitter so she can make it to 10th grade on time, if at all. Think before you act. If you know someone who is struggling with the decision of becoming a parent, refer them to this blog. Let them hear how it is from someone who has been there.

Attention everyone, My husband leaves for basic training in a few days & I have created a new blog covering my experiences as a military wife. I think you will really enjoy it. Give it a look & become a follower! Let me know what you think. Also, I will be covering my weightloss on that page as well. I would love to lose 30lbs before my husbands graduation. www.alwayswaitingforasoldier.blogspot.com

One of those days

I seriously just about had a melt down. My son was acting out so I told him to go to his room and go to sleep and he sit there and was screaming at the top of his lungs "I don't want to go to sleep" and all sorts of other stuff(he is four btw) and I kept telling him to be quite and stop yelling and he wouldn't. He just kept doing it. Finally I went in and spanked him twice and he kept doing it no matter how many times I told him to stop. I finally had to call his dad in from outside to come in and talk to him. As soon as his dad came in he was perfectly fine. I was in tears by this poing. I am so damn frustrated. My husband is leaving for basic training in less then 3 months and I can't even control him. What am I supposed to do? I am losing my mind with him. He is always talking back, and whines when I tell him to do anything. I don't know how to handle him acting like this. Even if I do spank him it doesn't do any good. It's not like he is a bad kid or something; he isn't. He is very good he is just always whining when I tell him to do something and always has an attitude and talks back to me. (NEVER to his dad) I don't know if it's me getting more frustrated then usual because of the new baby, or if this is really happening. Am I just being more irritable. I don't know. I feel so guilty sometimes because I know that I give Natalie more attention and I get angry with him when he is jumping around her and stuff, but she is a baby and she needs more attention. I love my son, I do, but I don't know how I am supposed to deal with him when my husband is gone. Frankley this scares the shit out of me. I have been super stressed latley thinking about him leaving. That's one more thing I need to add to the list.

Another Planned Addition to the Family

My daughter Natalie Paige was born march 19,2012. She was 7.36lbs and 19 in long. I love her more then words can describe. Shes adorable and both of my kids are blessings. I love being a mother and now that my husband has joined the military, I can finally be a stay at home mother. Its all I have ever wanted. I love my husband. He is my bestfriend and he is a great husband and father who will do anything to make Natalie, Aden, and I happy. I am excited but scared about our military life. He leaves july 3 and I will miss him so much. I don't know how I will function without him around to help my and laugh with me. I am just greatful god blessed me with such a great family & I know he will get us through this.

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Pregnant again!

I know I haven't posted in a while so forgive me, I have had so much going on these last few months. I am now 7 Months pregnant with my second baby, Natalie. This too was a planned pregnancy and me and my husband couldn't be more excited about adding to our family. I will post pics as soon as she is born and will update asap.

Happy Holidays!

 This weekend was amazing in terms of family time. My son had an amazing time poping the fireworks. I went down to my moms for the 4th of July and when we got there they had a suprise graduation party waiting for my fiance and I. It was so sweet and we were showered with gifts. The next day my niece, Alexus(Lexi) came home with us and spent the night with Aden. They were playing all night. Shes 6 and he is 3 so she was complaining about how he was getting on her nerves a little. Probably because he was whining about everything as usual. Eventually his dad got fed up with it and made him go to timeout and when he came out he was acting fine. They both were loving lighting the fireworks( with our supervison of course). So anyway, it turned out to be a pretty good weekend.
  Also, I finally remembered a name of a childhood movie I loved. The Seventh Brother. I have been watching it on youtube all day. Its my guilty pleasure I suppose. What is your favorite childhood movie?

Home Videos

 So I was going though my computer files and I found some old home videos. They were all from when Aden was under a year old.  I absolutley loved watching them. It made me go back a few years to when my baby was still a baby. He looks the same, but now he is more like a little boy then my baby that I once knew. It was like a totally different person. It makes me kind of sad to see how fast time goes by. I am going to be sure to make more videos from now on because I know in a few years I am going to miss the person he is now. I wish I could go back in time and live in that age forever. The time where he needed me more then he does now. I wish I could visit the past anytime I wanted to. Also, if I could go back and change somethings that I did, or didn't do as a mother, I would. I know I made mistakes as a mother because I was so unexperienced. I did the best I could with my son, and I am a good mother.
   On another note, Aden just threw a shoe and knocked the bowel off the table. Then the bowel flew at me and sliced my ankle open. He keeps apoligizing. I know he didn't mean too. He's so sweet. I will try to upload some home videos tomorrow. Night.